I'm depressed and need a reality check?

Why are you overweight? I have a freind who's deaf and plays a pretty good clical piano, so your problem is being overweight? Start looking into how to lose the pounds. It starts with you not anybody else. Its like quitting smoking. If you try to do it slow it never works. You have to do it cold turkey. Start facing God instead of turning your back on him. I think starting the day on your knee's would be a real good start. It's not going to hurt, and you must remember He is always available to talk you know. He never turns his back on anyone. The only way he is not in someones life is because they don't want him there. Have you tried your church's youth group? Have you thought about helping someone else instead of wallowing in your own dirt. Tell me you can't do anything you put your mind too. Wake up and thank the Lord for his day and his gift to you. What can you give back to him?????